four months.

it is exactly four months until i will be a graduate of abilene christian university.  four months until i move from the place i've known my whole life.  four months until i embark on an adventure with the one i love.  four months.  in some ways, four months seems so soon...but in others, it seems like an eternity.

in four months, i will finally be free.  free of my past (high school, relationships, etc.) and free to live in the present.  the next four months will be spent living in the future--counting down the days/months until i graduate/move, conversations about future living arrangements, marriage plans, and even just when it is we can see each other next.  once that four months is up, that will be no more.  i can finally just live in the present, plan for the now, seize the day!

in attempt to make the next four months better, i'm going to try not to live in the future all the time.  i mean, i still have plenty that needs to be taken care of right now, i can't spend all of my days thinking, planning, worrying about the future.  like for instance, i need to get healthier.  so instead of planning on working out--i'm starting my workout today!! (after this blog actually:])  also, starting on the 24th of this month, i'm going to have 17 hours of school to keep me busy in the here and now.  i mean, yes, it does actually take some work to graduate from college:]  and along with school, working out, my job (that regardless of what my shirts says, i do not love), and trying to keep up with all my precious transfer students, i'm going to take these next four months to work on me.  the core of who i am.  i want to become spiritually strong and diligent.  one day, i'm going to be a wife and a mother, and i want to be the best wife and mother i can possibly be.

anyway, the gym is calling my name.  peace.  love.  & mariska hargitay.